Tuesday, December 20, 2011

It's Time

A few nights ago I was sitting on my couch in my warm, cozy living room, soaking in the still of the moment, and asked myself a question. "What would be your perfect career and how would you feel in it?" So I closed my eyes and let myself imagine. I felt purpose and a natural rhythm of moving and doing—I clearly knew. I had vision and pure intrinsic drive. I was in sync with my true self. I was helping people, coaching people, sharing my health journey. I was speaking and teaching and connecting with people. It felt energizing and exciting and rewarding! I felt fulfilled and creative and so happy. I was relaxed, having fun, and authentic. I was me!

This journey that started out as an experiment with a new way to eat to heal from rheumatoid arthritis quickly became a journey of self-discovery—a road to finding myself. Because of that, much of my time over the past 21 months has been spent quietly processing what I've been learning rather than publicly blogging about it like I'd planned. It's been a solitary journey. But after visualizing my dream career, it all went click-click-click in my brain, and I said aloud, "Is it time? Is it really time?!" Then I felt the freedom and joy of creating come back to me. I instantly knew I needed to blog my "I LOVE U" post that had been waiting for months. And then I flipped to a powerful journal entry I'd written while sitting on the lawn of the capitol, and so I made a separate post. I post-dated both entries so they'd authentically follow my timeline of health. And then I knew it had to be this way—I need to fill in the holes of the journey using my journals so it's as authentic as possible. I want you to feel like you're really on this journey with me, especially if you're seeking healing too. It'll give you a logical perspective of time, pain, foods, improvements, discoveries, and all the highs and lows. This feels good. It's time!

My journey is very personal to me, as I am sure your journey was/is/will be, but if my opening up and sharing can help even one of you, though it may leave me a little exposed and vulnerable, I know it will be worth it. Much of this journey has been to teach me to let go of worrying about what others think, so I guess this is putting that to the test. It's time to be real. It's time to be honest. It's time to let you all know that I'm just as flawed as you think you are, and I'm also just as divinely radiant, infinitely wise, and boldly courageous as you may not yet know you are. Isn't this exciting guys?! You too are on a path to become the person you were always meant to be! (I don't doubt there's a reason you're here on this blog right now, reading this post.) I want to shout all I've learned from the rooftops. I want to shout how grateful and joyful and blessed I am. But I guess for now this blog will suffice. One post at a time I'll share what I've learned.

Though nonconventional and nontraditional in every sense of the words, this journey to healing is undeniably real. I am walking, running, dancing proof that we can be healed if we are open and willing and believing.

4 comments:

Kara Rush said...

Katie, I love YOU! I just discovered your blog this afternoon through Sam. I have read through many posts and I am so grateful to you for doing this. You are an amazing person, and you have definitely helped me to feel motivated to make changes. Thank you. I am so happy for your healing.

Kate said...

Kara, hearing from you makes my heart happy! Thanks for sharing your perspective and gratitude. Please keep me posted on the changes you're making and what you're experiencing. Love you!!

D'Arcy said...

I'm just starting my journey. I'm overwhelmed with the transition to raw/vegan/vegetarian lifestyle. I have a goal of learning two new recipes a week and taking it one step at a time. It was so awesome to discover your blog today! I am subscribed and can't wait to read more!

xoxo

Kate said...

I'm so excited for you, D'Arcy! You're showing yourself so much love right now! Two recipes a week sounds doable. Yeah, it can be overwhelming at first, but it sounds like you're personalizing your pace so you stick with it. Once you get familiar with making new dishes, it's so much easier to feel at peace about there being food you can eat. Keep me posted on your journey and share any of your own discoveries!